The a Flash of lights were blinding, and his ears were ringing.
'oh....was..i hit?'
That thought wandered through Chin-hae's head as he lay there slowing bleeding out, the people rushing around him blurring into background noise.
The rain was slowly drenching his cloths, his umbrella lay broken and forgotten to the side.
'Hah.. what a way to go, all i had to do was to cross the street, if i had known it was this easy i would have tried sooner.'
While he said that he knew he was only stalling for time, he knew he had no desire to live but still couldn't bring himself to end his life by his own hand.
'Ah... it's warm'
The blood was spilling from his head, his arm laid at a awkward angle his fingers twitching, he had long lost the feeling in his legs and now his finger tips were slowly turning numb.
'I wonder... if i wasn't born here in this world, if i was born somewhere else, would i be happy? Could i live a life as i pleased? Would i have others who loved and cherished me?' A face flashed through his mind briefly but he couldn't bare to think about it longer.
All he could hear now was buzzing, his eye site fading into darkness.
'I wonder if there is a god... somewhere out there, i wonder if..no it's no use. I have no business wishing for things that will never exist.'
And finally there was silence, he had grown numb to the pain by the time everything had finally disappeared. He was willing to walk into the arms of death, there was no need to stay in a world where he couldn't enjoy his life. There never was any happiness from the start. So he walked and walked leaving behind a broken body, and broken dreams. Broken hopes and wish's,emotions and attachments, he accepted it. He was free. He was in peace.
His silence was broken by someone's scream. It was high pitched the voice full of agony. He shifted his senses picking up a hard stone ground where he lay, his skin sticking to the damp ground. The next thing he noticed was the smell, the horrible vomit inducing smell- it was a mixture of things like rotting flesh and body waste, sweat and blood. The screaming continued. His limbs felt heavy and exhaustion settled deep in his bones. His eyes were swollen shut making it hard for him to open his eyes. He blinked, and blinked again.
' This... isn't a hospital, i'm sure i died..where am i?'
There was a stone wall i from of him. His eyes traveled downwards and he found stone weights around both his wrists attached to a metal chain imbedded into the stone wall in front of him. He was quite obviously in a jail of sorts.
'Ah... perhaps.. this is something similar to reincarnation? Maybe i... have i inhabited someone else's body?'
He was laying on a damp stone ground chained to a wall in front of him. Their were floor to ceiling bars behind him, where a weak light came from beyond his cell. Chin-hae was naked except for a torn pair of grey pants. The screaming had stopped by now, short whimpers were the only sound echoing inside the dark corridor. He could vaguely make out the outlines of other cells on both sides of the walls but the inhabitants were too shrouded in the dark for him to make anything out. It seemed his cell was the last one allowing him to see all the other cells-
" Alright, you bitchs! You know the drill! Say one word and i'll sow er' mouths shut!"
A loud gruff voice stoped his train of thought, he felt his body involuntarily stiffen. He did not recognize the voice but his body was scared of it, and he did not recognize the language but he still understood it.
'I am not in a good situation...am i being punished? Is this something that god is making me go through? Have i done something wrong?'
For the first time in what felt like years a burning anger built up in his chest his breathing was stifled, hatred,unwillingness and anger pulsed through his body. Sweat dripped down his back, pain courses through his wrists. 'I am unwilling! Have i not suffered enough?! Must i always end up like this?! Why can't i fight back!! Why... can't i...' As quickly as his anger came it left, a echo of despair and sadness left in its place. Steps sounded from down the corder and 2 voices entered his ears.
" ..Yes thank you, i am looking for workers, hmm the ones who are strong will do."
It was a new voice, it wasn't from that loud gruff man.
" Yes, yes and... the money? It will be costing you quite a coin..."
'The man from before was talking to somebody, and that somebody wants to buy? Rent? workers...for something.' Chin-hae quickly grasped the situation, he and the other here were slaves or something similar, and they could be sold and bought by others to do work? And it seemed like it could be for anything...
A light came down from the stairs at the end of the corridor and 2 men's body's came into view, they were looking into certain cells that the fatter one pointed out and judging the people inside. The fatter man was the one who had warned them to keep silent, he most likely was the owner or worked with the owner closely as it seemed he was in charge of all the people here.
' His voice... when he first spoke my body reacted.. it seems that 'i' am scared of him.."
—The 'i' refers to the body he is in—
They finally reached his cell, Chin-hae stayed silent and lowered his eyelids to make it seem like he was passed out.
"..And here is another one, haha he's been here for a while, he's decent when it comes to labor but he was sold by some family for money, so he's still pretty young, i wouldn't place my bet on him if it came to any hard labor."
Beside the fat man with the scruffy face was a bulky man with red hair dressed in a black cape, his chin was round and he gave Chin-hae a sleazy feeling, but his next words confirmed it.
"Well... he is a beauty... and besides labors i guess i could use a source of relief..." He trailed off and through Chin-hae's lashes he could see the fatter mans eyes glitter and the idea of milking more money out of the other man.
" If that's the case i'm sure there is one other who would be to your tastes..."
His voice faded away and the 2 walked away and to a cell near the front.
When the 2 men left they took 5 slaves with them 4 were tall looking men and one was a starved woman.
Chin-hae has never cared for other because others never cared for him, they left him in his time of need, the world left him, in his tome of need he had no feelings for those men and woman because they wouldn't do anything to help him if he was the one being taken. Chin-hae has learned this the hard way I when his mother killed his father and then herself leaving him to there relatives to deal with. He had simply been a burden so without a second thought they had sent him to a orphanage.
There disgusted eyes looking at him while they cursed his mother for marrying a worthless man and leaving behind him. He had been doused with a cold bucket of water in those moments. The hope he had felt when his had found his parents were dead and thought he could finally escape and live a good life was ruthless crushed. He had finally realized that there would only be suffering in the future.From then on he had lived in a black and white world when he breathed but did not live.
He closed his eyes the exhaustion inside of his body crashing on him like a wave, the fact he was now in another body, another world perhaps even universe had finally sunk in. There was no escape, no going back- there never was. He had died, and now he was here, alone, trapped, hungry, and tired. He let his mind sink into the dark leaving behind his surroundings as sleep over took him.
While he slept vague unrecognized memory's flitted through his tired mind. A wooden shack, a woman and a man, mud and waste,blood and bruises, alcohol bottle after alcohol bottle.A carriage full of chains and other dirty kids, darkness and pain,so much pain. There was images of a majestic castle and white cobblestone streets, of puke and blood and more and more blood then more chains and darkness, hurts-hurts- hurts.Then there were memories he recognized, of neon lights and yelling, cigarette burns and broken glass, of leather belts and pills. Then bloody body's and a boys smile in a cracked mirror. A crooked smile, one of happiness and a morbid sense of relief with a tint of madness. Then there was old rotting wallpaper and the smell of trash, woman and drugs. Then he saw money,money, money, he saw people who were filled with greed and ruthlessness,he saw tall glass buildings, hate hate hat-
His eyes snapped opened.