Chapter Sixteen
Lucianna's POV
We danced. Slow at first but it turned wild later on.
I'm having fun, I'm feeling alive. The loud music, Justin's funny and entertaining company. It's all taking away every mad memories I had in the last three days.
I was hesitant.
At first.
But there was something with Justin that makes me continue, makes me go with his flow.
It's not like I like him or something, but I'm enchanted with his company. He was fun, he was talkative and friendly but all my mind can think of was his warm body grinding on me as we dance.
I know I'm on heat. I can feel a gushing waves of haze clouding my head, and all my mind can focus into was to feel more of his heat.
Jacob was nothing compare to the man in front of me, but Justin was the one with me right now, not my mate. And my heat was attacking, almost an incurable disease, I should give in to it.
And I want to give in, for my revenge.
Justin's moves slowed down and his hands grabbed on my waist, tighter, trying to stop me from grinding back to him. We were dancing and he stopped us just so he could drew me closer to him.
"I love your scent." he whispered on my ears. I blushed. The scent of my arousal must have reached him, and its too evident now that I can feel my undergarment soaked with my own juice.
I giggled to hide my embarrassment. I am not used to this kind of conversation so I did not bother for a response.
My head was in a daze from the alcohol and the heat I'm suffering into. Or am I suffering? I can feel nothing but pleasure and a slight guilt which the latter fading in every second that I want to get back with the pain Jacob inflicted to me.
I felt his thumb on my waist slowly drawing circles, creating a vibrating tingles on my spine, the hairs on my nape rising from it.
"It's weird, your scent." he whispered, sniffling on my neck now.
I stiffened with what he said. What does he meant by that? Can he still smell Jacob's scent on me? But I'm sure, his mark has faded, his scent must not linger on me by now!
"W-What?" I tried to chuckle to hide how nervous I'm being.
"Your arousal… its too sweet. As if you're mated but…" he sniff on my neck, dipping his nose on my skin more. "I can't smell any male in you. It's weird." he chuckled that I felt his chest vibrates on mine. That, made me turned on more. My peaks were awakened from how his warmth brushed through the fabrics of our clothes.
I bit my lip, suppressing the moans crumpled on my throat.
It felt sinful to have this feelings around someone not my mate but… it feels so good.
Is this why Jacob cheated on me?
I think I can live with this…
"Maybe… y-you just arouses me… too much." I can barely utter the words and he pulled away a little to look at my eyes.
His eyes are burning in desire, and I know I mirrored that same feelings.
Justin groaned, pulling me closer again. "Let's get out of here."
I frowned a little, not following to his words but I got what he meant. Clearly.
"S-Sure." I want to scratch this itch I'm feeling, to clench this thirst I'm having. This, that I thought I will only have around my mate.
He groaned, pressing his forehead to mine, as if his control just snapped and left without anything to stop what was about to happen anymore.
"I'll take you to my place. Come…" he whispered before pulling me out of the crowd.
Jacob's POV
Ran off? Away from me? That woman! Like I will let her!
The door of the house slammed open as I went in.
She was not here.
I growled.
I thought Brent must be playing games with my emotions again because I clearly saw a faint shade of lie on his shadow.
Still, I believed his words because it was not impossible that Lucianna will want to run away from me after what I have done to her.
Just when I decided to stop my thirst-clenching activity, stop fucking those bitches for my sake, my mate ran away.
Ha!
No, I will not be troubled. I know she will be back.
'Coming from you who think of our mate as a weakling, you put too much confidence in her.' my wolf growled, mocking me.
I did not bother respond to him.
I can't. I'm also shock that I am feeling this way.
I'm confused if I'm just trying to calm myself or if I really did believe she has potential and not as weak as her lifeless shadow.
Looking out of the window, through the darkness, my mind wandered.
Did she…
Of course, she must be despising me. I made her hate me, didn't I?
Then why am I feeling this way? Like a fucked up lost kid defeated by some bullies!
A sarcastic chuckle vibrated from my chest.
Fuck this mate bond thing.
'Alpha, there's still no sign of a woman exiting in any of the border.' Kopi, the head of the Guards of my pack, informed me through our portal.
When my Beta informed me of Lucianna's getaway, my first action was reaching to Kopi, alarming them to stop a woman from exiting the land. My head was on track, and I planned what to do ahead of me. But still, I feel something different. Fear, was it? No. Something more.
I sighed. Then this only means she's still inside the pack.
Where could she go?
'Why don't you contact her mind!' my wolf growled his command. I groaned from how he tries to take control.
'No.' I answered back to my wolf. If she wanted to escape me, she can try.
I can smell her faint scent, not as strong as the first time but enough to know that she was indeed still in my land.
My claim on her neck must be a fading mark by now, I should have renewed my claim earlier.
If only we didn't end up fighting.
Sighing, I decided to respond to Kopi. 'Stay guarded. Report directly to me.'
'Copy that, Alpha.'
**
I was deep in thoughts, fighting my own mind through this stranger emotions when my phone rang.
It has been an hour since my mate's disappearance and I already don't know what was the meaning of peace of mind.
The caller was my mother, and sighing, I answered it lazily.
"Mother." I greeted with another sigh, I knew what she called for this time.
"Jacob! A little bird told me that you have found your mate! How true was this?! Why do I have to hear this from someone else?! Will it hurt to tell your mother about-"
"Ana." it was my father's voice, trying to stop mother from nagging.
"Don't 'Ana' me, Alejandro. This is an important matter and yet our son was keeping it a secret to us! For what, huh, Jacob?"
I shook my head slowly.
I don't need to wonder who that little bird is, I knew just who was deeply concern about my matters.
"How's the vacation, mother?" I said, ignoring the things she said.
My mother, Anabel, and my father Alejandro went to the other side of the continent to celebrate their anniversary.
"Don't you use our vacation to distract me, young man! Tell me if what I heard was true!"
I sighed.
"Yes, mother. I found her at the Ball."
She hissed over the line. "And was it true that you are cheating with your mate!?"
I know she was asking, but half of her mind was already furious about it. Mother was just asking to be sure even if her instinct already tells her it was true.
"Well…" I cleared my throat and purse my lips, not planning on adding more words to it.
"You!" I could imagine her nose flared-open, right now. "I did not raise you to act like an animal! Not because you're an Alpha, and you have control of your wolf, means you can abuse your powers to hurt someone else! And your mate!" she muttered curses. "What the hell is wrong with you!?"
My jaw continues to clench as I listened to her. Its not like I don't know that what I did was wrong but I can't take it back.
I already did.
I already did, and even if I decided to stop, I know the damages has been done.
"We will go back there to put some sense into your--"
"No, we won't." my father quickly opposed. "Let me talk to him." Then there was some rustling heard on the line before my father took over. "Jacob."
"Father." my back straightened out of instinct as if he was here. I respect father a lot, he was the one who patiently taught me things and he was the one who fought--maybe its not the right time to think about the past.
"I won't meddle with your matters but I know by now, you already realized your mistake. Rejection is not possible, and whatever you see in your mate's shadow won't change the bond between you. You already know this?"
"So that's it?! Again with the shadows?! Let me talk to him! I bet Roscoe still affects him to--"
My mother's voice faded and I think father walked away from her.
I sighed upon hearing my brother's name.
"Son, stop running away and start facing your truth. If this is about Roscoe--"
I hissed, closing my eyes shut. "This is not about brother." I said through gritted teeth.
Silence was heard on the line for a moment. I hissed again, trying to shove away the bitter thoughts that was trying to replay on my head.
"It's about time that he will be back. Fix your mess before then."
The line died after he said those words.
I am not shocked that my parents still think that my decisions still depends on my brother and the past. Sometimes, I think it is, too.
Maybe I'm still haunted by the ghost of my past.
Maybe.
My mind started to sunk into the memories that I tried and buried deep in my head when I suddenly felt a sting of pain on my chest.
What the--
"Ugh!" I groaned, placing my hand on my chest as a shard of picture flashes in my head.
I saw two people, the mate bond was showing her to me…
Lucianna.
And a guy.
The guy's head was dipped on her neck, and she no longer have a shirt on!
What the fuck!
Her bare chest was open for the guy, for a guy that was not me! What the--
Another pain, like a wrecking ball smashing on my chest strike again, and then on my back.
Repeatedly.
And I know my mate was with a guy, and the bond was trying to inform me, letting me feel it!
She was starting her infidelity! Cheating on me!
How?!
How can she cheat on me!?
She was weak! She was not supposed to!
She was not an Alpha! She was not supposed to be able to cheat because she have no full control of her wolf and---
Oh, no.
Fuck!
I did not sate her heat today!
Groaning from one after another waves of pain, I jumped out of the house and enhanced my senses to locate her.
Everything was blurring, and my head was not functioning well from the pain that kept on attacking my body but I fought it, and find where she is.
My wolf growled when we saw her location.
I think you raised a snake in your pack!
I growled, too.
My senses are pointed to one of my pack council's house, to that one person I trusted to be the Head of the Trackers!
My speed increases as rage of anger washes through me, making my alpha blood rise and take over.