"If you don't follow along, you'll be back in your boring life"
My hand Trembled, looking at the text message a man sent me.
"sorry... it was nice talking with you though, I thought we'd start slow but.."
I pressed delete and unfriend, I deleted the damned dating app frustrated by this difficult thing calles love. I said it was EASY to my friends but honestly? is there still love in, an era like this? an era where we are used and abused, got our freedom and resources stolen?
Why do people cry too much over pathetic things... why is love so relevant.. why am I a sinner if I dont marry?
I am scared, I am tired, Why.. why...WHY!?
Marriage this, Marriage that, they kept insisting... but aunties, why do I see you all ragged up? why do I see you look tired and depressed? why are you soo unhappy with your life but still insist that it is something sacred and something I will be happy for?
I threw my phone on my bed, opening my windows, I looked up the sky,
Suddenly I hear groans of people as my neighborhood went out of power.
I saw the sky, soo beautiful and sparkly with stars and a big moon, the comfort of the night sky and nature really heals my heart.
why cant I live my life alone in a cottage...Why don't people find the sound of peace, and beauty of this world is enough to love... I just want to lay on the grassy ground as I star gazing.
If only humans know that this kind of life is not depressing..
I imagine laying on a grass, star gazing, as fireflies started to fly.
I lay still, falling asleep as the comfort of this Imaginary place of mine.
"Home" is what I call it, but if others knew... they would have me crazy. a tear run down my cheeck, I felt upset, and... lonely?
yes.. maybe no matter how argue, it truly hurts to not have another presence or to be understood.
the tears keep coming as I don't resist.
"Why are you afraid to marry!?"
"YOU WILL BECOME A SINNER"
"You're wasting your life over something stupid"
"that is what females are for!"
"no wonder, who would marry a tomboy"
"wear something and go attract someone! you will die lonely if you dont even try!"
"You're fat, no man wants that"
I cover my ears as these sharp reminders keep reminding me.
"No, I don't want to..."
I shake my head as my tears started to pour even more.
Why is this world soo harsh? why can't I just be who I am...
the noises starts to disappear and I fell asleep fast. "please.." I mumble, As I cry in my sleep.
The hurt little Ruru, reached the sympathies of stars, Ruru a unique child, the stars, adores Ruru just the same as she is with them, but Ruru never knew that.
the princess of the sky's heart, ached at the sight of Ruru's depression, this world is not nice for sucha fragile child.
"she has a different heart and mind, we should move her... what about that realm?"
the stars discussed, and reached to an agreement.
sixth star: " I will go persuade father Sun"
Eleventh stat: "then I will go to mother moon"
the stars worked hard, just for the sobbing Ruru..
"Don't worry child, we will gift you the best life" The first star gave a peck of kiss on Ruru's forhead.
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after her long rest, she woke up, all of a sudden her bed is soo comfortable, she wondered . "Did I sleep walk in some neighbors house?" she yawned and after an minute later her eyes popped open as soon as she saw how Vintage the place is or cottage core it is...
"where.. am I?"