Again I wake up, I can't do anything, again I fall back asleep, again I overcomplicate things.
I crave affection, affection I already have, I crave friendship, friendship I already have, I crave good luck, which I already have.
I have everything I need to become better, so yet why am I doing nothing? Why do I feel like doing nothing? This sucks. Everything sucks. It's all in my mind, everything is much better than it feels like.
A supportive family, close friends, honest and kind outlook on life, I have things that other people probably don't have, yet why do I feel like shit. It's probably just a phase, I'll get over it someday, somehow. I mean, it's inevitable, whatnot with everything I already have, it feels good, but I can't do anything to make up for it, I can't get up, I stay on the screen again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
I wonder, what am I really good at
?
What is it that I can do better than anyone else, something that is truly unique to only me? Or is that, idk, my mind is a mess, I have a good life, idk why I feel this way, yet again I forgot what I needed to do, get again I forgot what I wanted to say, yet again, I don't feel satisfied... I don't feel like I've done everything I can, said everything I wanted to.
But it's alright, it's going to be alright...
After all, I have time right?
Time that I have wasted
Time that I spent meaningfully
Time that I spent happily...
And so I forgot my sadness, the cycle begins anew...