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Chapter 10 - Chapter 10: You Don’t Get to Want Me Now

I was done waiting.

For texts that never came.

For a voice that only whispered when it wanted something.

For a boy who kissed like a god but loved like a ghost.

He had his chance.

He wasted it.

And I was done bleeding for someone who never stayed long enough to see the stains.

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He showed up the next morning.

On campus.

By the steps I always sat on.

Like he hadn't gone radio silent.

Like he hadn't kissed me and disappeared.

Like we were still something soft.

"You've been avoiding me," he said.

I didn't even look at him.

"I've been healing."

Silence.

The kind that used to mean something between us.

But now? It just felt hollow.

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"I didn't mean to disappear," he offered, voice low.

"That's the thing with you," I said, finally turning to face him. "You never mean to ruin things. You just do."

He winced.

Good.

Let it sting.

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He reached for me.

Not a touch.

Just... a movement. Like habit.

But I stepped back.

And for the first time, I watched him falter.

Because he expected the girl who fell.

Not the woman who rose.

"You don't get to want me now," I said.

Not with the same mouth that kissed me breathless and left me wordless.

Not with the same hands that never stayed.

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"I messed up," he admitted. "I got scared."

I laughed. Cold. Bitter. Real.

"Scared of what?" I asked. "Of being seen? Of being wanted for more than your mystery?"

"No," he whispered. "Of how easy it was to fall for you."

And damn it, that almost broke me.

Almost.

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But I shook my head.

"Falling for someone doesn't excuse breaking them."

He stepped forward.

But I didn't let him close the distance.

"Look at me," I told him. "Really look."

He did.

Eyes scanning every inch.

Slower than a breath.

Softer than he'd ever been.

"I'm not yours anymore," I said. "I was never meant to be owned. Only loved."

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He said nothing.

Just watched me like I was a fire he couldn't put out.

And maybe I was.

Because this time, I walked away.

And he didn't follow.

Not because he didn't want to.

But because he finally understood—

I was never the one who should've chased.

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