In the first night, while sleeping..
A sense of nightmare visited the oldest son.
My son, run! Run! Do not mind me! I will protect myself!
The oldest son suddenly awoke, and his suddenness in action woke his dad, and other 2 siblings. Then, Harumo came to his oldest, and he asked,
"What happened? Why do you suddenly awoke?"
Drops of tears dropped little by little from the oldest's eyes.
Observing the behavior of his eldest, Harumo hugged his son,
"Mother, is it?"
The oldest then cried so loud, and he spoke,
"It is my failure, if only....if only- if only i-"
Suddenly the second shouted,
"No, there is no 'if' or 'else', do not blame yourself always, brother!"
Aiko also exclaimed,
"Yes, brother! Do not let bad dreams corrupt you!"
The eldest only stare at nothingness, and he spoke,
"I hope i can, i hope i can escape this, and go further beyond."
Harumo caressed his son's head, and he spoke,
"My son, no need to feel wrong, or feel worried. We will have a better future soon, do not look at your past, look at the future."
The eldest nodded, and he went to sleep. The other children also followed to sleep.
But in the whole time before sunrise, Harumo was deep in guilt, he spoke in his heart,
"It is not the children, it is me, if only i don't follow the orders to go, i will never lost her."
Because of his despair, he was the one who cannot see beyond.