Mira Pov
"Does it hurt?" Rowan asks me with care in his eyes. I can't wrap my head around the question. Their hands are doing wonders to my body.
I shut my mouth even tighter because giving him an answer would definitely make them know the strength they have over me and I have no intention of fulfilling such desire.
"You are really stubborn. We warned you not to do that." Damien says. I try to track him by his voice to see exactly what he's doing, my brain gets lost in the pleasure.
"Let the girl be. If she's trying to be stubborn,let her be. You're bothering her." I suspect it to be Kai,but I'm not sure, I promise myself to learn the individual difference between all of them.
At least in times like this, I have would be able to tell them apart.
"Can we all just let the girl be and enjoy this in silence! My wolf is struggling here."
They are series of murmurings and grumbling that ruin the whole activity.
I feel choked and I struggle to breathe.
"We need to stop." Rowan says, obviously sensing my discomfort.
"No fucking way. Even Serene has not satisfied us like this. I am not ending this now!"
"Stop!" The anger and displeasure in the voice tells me it's Rowan.
Slowly, they all come to a halt.
"We can't mark her here, not like this, not now. She's struggling to breathe and the rest of you did not even bother to check if she was okay. She doesn't know how these things are done,she has never done it before and we are about to take her and mark her here and now." There is intense desire in his eyes as he speaks to the rest of them.
"I noticed her lack of breath though." Damien says it. He looks at me like he was sure I could never beat Serene in this game.
"I'm okay." I struggle to sit upright, my thigh is on fire. Burning from their excess exercise.
"No,you are not." He quickly intercepts.
"I, I'm okay." I squeeze the bed tightly trabsferrring all of the pain I'm feeling to it.
"Mira, you do not have to lie to any of us. We understand you. We know why and we understand. Okay?" He raises a brow when he realizes that I'm not answering him.
"Okay." I nod quietly. I feel a pang of guilt when I stare into their eyes filled with desire. They are all panting.
"Serene would never have done this. She was not our mate, but she was quite good in bed. This is only going to be the last time." Kai drags his jacket from the floor and wears it on as he speaks to me.
I lower my head in shame and doubt. Does he already hate me?
"What a great finishing. Now I have blue balls and I have to attend to myself. Should we have even paid for her? We could have just stormed into her clan and kill all of them, we could have found better girls than just her." I hear the clanging of belt, so he's zipping up.
I grip the bed even tighter when the last words he uttered flash through my brain.
A scowl on father's face appears in my head and I shiver.
What if I lose my clan because of my inability to satisfy them like Serene. Would I be able to forgive myself?
"That's enough Kai. Don't be harsh on her. This is only her first time." Damien that I suspect to have the same feeling as Kai towards me defends me.
I have no idea if he's defending me because he feels bad or because he wants to leave me as fast as possible.
"She shouldn't have been so bold if it was her first time, I'm on, Damien and we all know how hard it is to get me here. I'm here finally and she's not ready."
"This is actually not her fault. We acted based on instincts. We did not consider a lot of things. And remember we did not meet Serene untouched." Lucian reminds them.
"We're supposed to act on instincts Rowan,we're werewolves not human beings. This is just our true nature. If she's going to wear the crown,she should take the weight of the crown as well." He's done dressing and he folds his arms as he stares at me like I fated myself to be their Luna.
"That's enough Damien. We can discuss all of this later. Your training as the next Luna begins tomorrow. Most of the trainings would be in silence. The rest of the clan is yet to know that they have a new Luna and I doubt they will easily accept you."
"Make yourself known in a very subtle way. We will still not be able to rule our pack without unity after all. This would be the first task we are officially handing over to you to take care of. Make sure you do not fail on your first task. It could ruin everything." They all leave and I sit there in silence.
The moments replay over and over again in my head and it's safe to say I hate myself.
I couldn't help them for one night,just one night.
How do I fulfill father's desire? How do I give them children if I struggle to have all of them for one night.
I need to be strong, I need to level up. And I need to make sure as I do all of this, I do not forget to avenge mother.
Else all of this would be in vain.
They killed her.
I should not be giving any of them pleasure or satisfaction.
"Just as I expected. You failed woefully,didn't you? I knew it. I told them they could not take you as a wife, talk more of a mate but they never listened."
"The moon goddess this, she fated us and all the rest. Now,you were not able to mate with them in bed. How are you going to get pregnant this way, weakling. No wolf, no stamina,no nothing. You're as good as a dead skeleton."