I knew her since grade school. She was very charming, smart, and friendly. She almost made friends with the whole school. The teachers are fond of her either. Even I... become fond of her. If, for instance, we are an adult and she'll run as a politician? She'll definitely win.
I was often bullied at school for a reason that I'm too young to understand. I am not that ugly, nor am I fat, though I don't have anything against being fat. But let's face it, they're the ones that are mostly being bullied by others for being themselves. I was not poor either.
I'm just... average.
"Hey, isn't that the weird kid?"
"Yeah, he's so creepy. I'm always scared just by looking at him."
This is often what I heard from my peers and schoolmates.
"Poor child, I didn't even see his parents fetch him once," a teacher commented.
'I don't care. It's not like I'll die if they don't show up.'
My parents were always busy at work. My father is a doctor, and my mom was working at a law firm. We seldom see each other even at home. I would arrive at home earlier than them, and they would always come home late at night when I'm already sleeping. In the morning, I would wake up with just a breakfast already made on the table and the note.
I'm pretty sure that if it weren't for their pictures around the house, I'd forget how they look.
My routine was going to school, being beaten by the bullies, and going home. That's it. Just a repetitive cycle that I got bored with.
But everything changes in high school. When the star that was shining so bright in the sky for many years falls into my hand. It burned me, but I like the new sensation that it gives me. Its warmth. Its blinding light that could even shine in darkness.
"Hi, I'm Sofia Benette. I will be your partner for the science class for the whole school year. Nice to meet you!"
I was hesitant to take her hand at first. I'm afraid that it might break. That my creepiness will find its way to corrupt such an innocent girl. Yet, I can't resist the urge to reach for it. To feel its tenderness. To own it.
'If I reach her hand, will I be able to feel anything? 'I asked myself curiously.
And so I reached for it.
'Ah, it feels weird. I can't understand, nor can I explain what I'm feeling. It feels nice and scary at the same time.'
We started to grow closer as days went by. And as we grew close, I started wanting more. More... More... More...
'I want to be the only person she'll look at. Ah... I'm going crazy.'
"Hey, it's okay. I know they love you. They're just busy working, but that's for your future as well. And you have me with you! I'll be your friend," she comforted me while stroking my back.
'Is it bad to take advantage of my situation and her kindness towards me? '
I hugged her tightly. I don't care if it's pity she's feeling. I don't care if she's seeing me as a friend. As long as she's mine.
"Ah... yes. Mine. She's all mine."
"I love you, Max! Let's be together forever, okay?"
Is there such a thing as forever? I don't believe in such things, but if it's with you, then I'll believe it. I'll love you for as long as I live. Even after death and wherever fate takes us.
"I hope you take care of my daughter, Max. She's our princess."
She introduced me to her parents after a year of being together. I was feeling... euphoric.
'I didn't know that being accepted by her parents felt this good.'
"When are you going to introduce me to your parents, Max? I want to meet them as well. I want to thank them for making and raising such a sweet child like you!"
Innocence.
She's so innocent that it makes me mad and afraid at the same time. I want to break that innocence and then offer her solace in my arms. Will that be enough for her to love only me?
'I'm having such a weird thought again. But it's not my fault. She's making me crazy.'
"You're so sweet, darling; my son is so lucky to have you."
Yeah, I was so lucky. I can definitely die right now, with her.
"Hey, noob!"
I looked at Justin, who called me at the back of the school. He's the leader of the bullies in our school. We've been classmates and schoolmates since grade school. And he's been bullying me ever since I can remember.
"How were you able to get Sophia as your girlfriend? Did you use a love potion or something?"
He was smoking in the corner along with some of his friends. I didn't answer him because I, myself, didn't know how either.
"Answer me, noob!" He threw the pack of cigarettes on my face, and then they laughed.
He stood up from where he was sitting and walked towards me. He put his arms on my shoulder and mockingly looked me in the eyes.
"Want to share her with us, boy? We could have some fun together."
"I like that, lead. We can have an o**gy."
They laughed again and cheered.
My ears perked when I heard what they said. Darkness is consuming me, and my mind becomes cloudy. When I came back to my senses, they were all lying on the ground, beaten. My hands are feeling sore, and there was blood on my uniform.
"She's mine. If any of you touches a single hair on her, I'll send you to the depths of hell."
I left them there, without asking for help. It's better if they'll just die.
Honestly, they're all weak. I can take all of them at once. But I thought before that if I were to stop them, my life would really become boring. At least they're spicing it up. Until today... They crossed the line.
No one should ever dare try to take her away from me. Nor fantasize about her. Everything in her is mine. ALONE.
The days went by peacefully and happily. We're still together even after 4 years. We fight, but I always make sure she'll come back to me. Or if not... I'll just lock her up. But I know she will not be happy, so I stopped myself.
"Max... Sophia got into an accident. She's in a coma right now."
Just when I thought everything was fine, this happened. Does the world really resent me? What did I ever do wrong?
Just when I finally found my happiness, you'll take it back.
"Why? Why? WHY!?"
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