Next morning...
Yn woke up with a slight headache and back pain as she didn't realise she slept on the floor yesterday... After sitting up the memories of last night flashed in her mind making her release a deep sigh...
"I'm sorry..." She mumbled. After zoning out for a moment she washed her face and freshen up before going downstairs.. looking at the time she predicts Taehyung might be at his office... She went to the kitchen and found the breakfast already set and found a note with it...
"Dear wifey, I'm sorry if i behaved like a jerk last night... No need to frustrate that little brain of yours okay? Have your meal on time and don't worry I'll be back early... I hope you have cleared your mind... I didn't want to disturb you so i made your meal as the maid is on leave...Enjoy your breakfast made by your hubby! Well I'm not a great chef like you but.. you gotta adjust sorry! Have a good day bye! I missed your morning kiss so my day is already ruined..:("
Automatically a chuckle left from Yn's mouth... "This guy...oh how much i love him" she said with a proud smile forgetting everything for a moment and sat down enjoying the breakfast made by him.
While having it she kept thinking about her decision... She knew it's gonna break his heart but she wanted him to have a good future too...
"I don't want to imagine our life without any kids... But at the same time i also don't want to imagine a life of him having kids with other woman...ughhh but i also don't want to be selfish... What should i do... I also know how much he loves me..." She thought deeply about it until it was already night and time for Taehyung to return.
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Taehyung entered into the house and searched for her presence... He went to the kitchen and expected her to be there but she wasn't there making him tense a bit...
Then felt relief after seeing her laying on their bed... He knew she was just pretending to be asleep as it was still early and she always sleeps late... "Yn? Are you asleep? Can...can we talk?" He asked her but there was no response.. guessing that she was just tired he shrugged off his thoughts and changed his clothes before laying beside her and hugged her waist... "I can't even sleep without hugging you... And this girl expects me to live without her...dumbo" he chuckles himself while looking at her features and pressed a long peck on her forehead before falling asleep not noticing the tear slipping from Yn's eyes... Not because of sadness but being guilty of saying something like that infront of him when he loves her this much.
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Next morning
Taehyung being half asleep searched for Yn beside but she wasn't there... He opened his eyes and rubbed his eyelids before stepping into the washroom.
After getting ready he comes downstairs just to smell the aroma of delicious food.. his face already lit up with smile and he dashed towards the kitchen finding Yn... She served the delicious food on the dining table and finally met his adoring gaze on her.
She clears her throat... "What? Why are you staring like that? Come fast and eat you'll be late" He smiles widely and hugs her pecking her all over her face making her giggle... "St-stop!!! Sit and eat first! Otherwise no breakfast!!" He pulled her closer and said "No problem I can have you as my meal..." He leans in with a mischievous smile but she steps away blushing but hiding it from him not to make it obvious...
He chuckles and makes her sit beside too before they started eating together and the atmosphere lightens up... They ate silently but it was peaceful...
After finishing... He stood up to go and she handed him his bag. "Well goodbye mister!"
But he didn't budge and remained there like a statue infront of the main door with pleading eyes... "Now what?" He scoffed "Did you really forget after just one day?.. come on I'm waiting!!!" She decided to tease him more "umm... You're running late! Goo!!" And turns away but he sighed "ughh fine you little brat!" Saying this he went to her and pulled her waist making her face him... She gasped "what-" and he smashed his lips on her...
She smiles in between and gave in... He smirked and deepened the kiss making her breathless.... Gasping for some air she parted away when he bits her lips... He caressed her lips with his thumb and said "that's the punishment you get little wifey" she sulked and pouts... He smiles and pecks her lips again before going away..
"This man..." She scoffed and went back to doing some work...
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They finally stopped thinking about the argument and moved on with life slowly... Taehyung made sure she never had to think of something like that again...
Today her mother in law decided to invite them over for dinner and so they both arrived at their home. Her in laws welcomed her wholeheartedly and by now everyone already knew about her infertility but they accepted her as it is and never questioned her... She truely feel blessed to have such in laws...
They were having a good time...until... Yn heard something again which left a scar on her heart...
She was searching for Taehyung as it was time for their return and when she passed by her in law's room she heard Taehyung and his mother talking about something serious... At first she was about to step inside until she heard "Does yn know about this?" his mother asked.. to which Taehyung shook his head in terror "no mom... she's still healing from that incident I can't bear to give her another traumatic information..who told you though" His mother sighed "you're right...i went for my jogging and saw her doctor and he asked me if she was fine... I told him about the situation and he said it's better to hide after she just had a miscarriage.. I was speechless... She was pregnant already but god really played with my child's fate..." Taehyung replied "it was still fetus... It was just 2 weeks... It's better to not tell her mom she'd break down" his mother agreed nodding with him "i know....did you talked about adoption?" Taehyung shook his head "no mom... We'll think about it later we still have our whole life ahead... Let's just not think about kids now... What happened has happened i don't want to ruin my present to better my future... I'll get going now she must be waiting..." His mother nodded.
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After bidding them farewell both Yn and Taehyung drove off to their home. It was a little suspicious for Taehyung as he noticed Yn was quiet the entire journey... He thought maybe she's just tired...not knowing she actually heard the whole conversation.
She was just lost after hearing such a big thing...
After arriving they went to their room and Yn was still silent Taehyung frowned and even asked if she's fine..but she lied being on periods...
He nodded and they both laid down after changing... Taehyung was already asleep but Yn just couldn't stop her thoughts...
"My baby... I killed my baby..our baby... Taehyung knew it... He knew everything...he hided everything from me... Even mom..." These haunting thoughts kept bothering her and she just couldn't sleep... She was just blank no emotion no tears...
She pulled away from Taehyung and back faced him... She caressed her tummy and a drop of tear slipped from the corner of her eye... "I deserve nothing.... It's all my fault... I don't deserve him... I'll go away... I'm not worthy... I'm careless..worthless.. for him... He deserves better... He was suffering all alone... Without letting me know... I even asked for a baby... He still didn't let me know.. amd suffered alone. I don't deserve him...i don't...i killed our baby i deserve nothing..." She was depressed.. she was loosing her mind thinking about all this.
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Almost one week passed Taehyung noticed her bright smile was no more to be seen... He tried asking her many times what's bothering her but she just avoided him. He was getting frustrated and worried at this point. He was scared she might fall in serious depression like this...
He asked her doctor about it and he suggested Taehyung to be with her as much as he can so that no disturbing thoughts crossed her mind.
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It was another day and Taehyung was late than normal days...
Yn was sitting in the hall... She gazed at the clock it was past midnight... "H-he's never late..." All of a sudden her hands started shaking in fear and she looks down to her lap... Fidgeting her fingers...her head was spinning.. her palms became sweaty Then all the negative thoughts crossed her mind.
It was now like a regular routine for her... Whenever she's stressed over something even if it's something minor inconvenience her mind started thinking of the worst possibilities... It was like she was loosing her mind control and the negativity surrounded her...
"Why's he late... He's never late...did something happen to him? N-no... It can't be... Did i lose him also?... It's already late... When will he come... Is he still at office? This late? With whom? With his secretary? A girl?....is he chea...n-no...no way... He loves me..but... I'm worthless.. i can't even take care of my own baby...why will someone love me... He'll leave me... Everyone leaves me...like my baby... I'm careless...i should..... die" Just when she thought about dying the door opened revealing an exhausted Taehyung.
He walked inside only to find Yn hugging her knees and staring at a wall lost in her own world... He checked the time and sighed...
He sat beside her and put some of her hair behind her ear.... Yn was startled by this as she came back to reality. She looked at him glaring and his heart ached seeing her dark circles and her pale face with shivering lips..
"Baby what happened? Why are you shivering?" He worriedly checked her temperature but it was normal before he can touch her again she jerked his hands off and stood up leaving him surprised...