Kevin nodded and said
" you can decide to have a research on her marital status if you want but I want her adress by the end of today "
Ron nodded in understanding. Ron was about to talk when Kevin's gaze fell on his phone. Then, the familiar urge came again. Kevin couldn't believe himself, first he had stolen chocolates and now he wanted to steal Ron's cell phone. For God sake, Ron's phone cannot be compared to his. What was wrong with his body and mind. If it wants to steal something fine, he had learned to accept himself. But why does it have to be things of no value to him. Besides the urge which had been quite for several days suddenly came twice today. Feeling the urge becoming stronger, he broke into sweat as he tried to resist it again. His inner self reprimanded him
" what are you doing Kevin, you've already accepted who you are. Why resist the urge, you would only suffer, and sadly in the end you would still steal it, quickly steal it for satisfaction. Finish the job"
The words of his inner being were so tempting.
Ron quickly noticed Kevin's sudden change and asked in concern
" Kevin, what's wrong. Are you ok "
Then Kevin cursed under his breath in frustration
" sh*t "
Ron frowned and was about to talk, when he heard Kevin furious voice
" GET OUT NOW "
Ron became confused
" huh "
Meanwhile Kevin was battling strongly with his inner self. His inner self scoffed
" you are telling him to get out. Will that lesson anything, you've already stolen chocolates, you are a thief since you were a child and you would always be. Don't try to do the impossible and quickly steal. I can't wait for the reward of intense satisfaction "
" No " Kevin thought, he was not a thief. He wasn't going to steal anything. In his moments of agony he tightly held his head in despair and said with red eyes. His voice full of anger
" Didn't you hear me. GET OUT NOW.... AND WITH YOUR DAMM USELESS PHONE"
Ron saw Kevin's behaviour getting out of hand and finally realised what was going on. Kevin might have had an attack again. He thought. Judging from his actions, it seems he wanted to steal his phone. Ron felt really bad seeing Kevin in this situation. He had been close to him all these years and really pitied him. Kevin had a good heart and didn't deserve it. But for some months now Kevin hadn't been having any attack so what happened. Could it be related to Linda. That made more sense. Instead of going Ron rather tried to carefully tell him that he didn't mind if he steals his phone. He slowly pushed the phone toward him and said
" you know what Kevin, I really do... "
But then his next words fell back into his throat when Kevin gave him a bloodshot deadly gaze. Kevin bellowed in intense anger
" are you trying to mock me. You want to call me a thief right. To you I am a thief right. I do not want to repeat my words again Ron. QUICKLY LEAVE WITH YOUR PHONE. I DON'T WANNA SET MY EYE'S ON IT . Ever again in my life. Discard it when you get out."
Ron opened his mouth but closed it in the end and quickly walked away with his phone.
Relief washed in Kevin's body for some short moments and frustration followed. He furiously threw things on his table away. He really hated himself now, felt like he was going crazy and felt really helpless again. Not only that he also had emotional distress, strong internal conflict with his inner being and even felt his head been split into two but his decision if firm. He had done this a few times and it worked on some occasions. He wouldn't let this disease completely control his body. He opened his drawer and took out a small bottle of medicine. Then he quickly took them. After a while he felt his nerves relax a bit and urge slowly decrease but it didn't totally go, it was only bearable. He greedily wanted to take all the medicine in but refrained himself from doing so. These medicines were personally made by him. They contained sedatives and other chemicals including nerve relaxation chemicals. Too much of the drug was going to reduce his ability to resist the urge which he wouldn't risk. Because of this he couldn't frequently take the drug but took it once in a while. Few minutes later, the drug weared out and the urge became irresistible again but some minutes later. They all slowly started to reduce and Kevin finally felt comfortable. He then felt excited, after a long run everything is over. He had won. He had been able to prove to his inner self that he wasn't a thief. He felt really happy and hoped he could always win over his desires like that. But he knew it was not always possible, the process was really painful and it happened once in a while that he could overcome his desires.
Kevin sat down with who knows what was going through his mind. He felt uncomfortable with the lot of sweat on his body so he quickly went to the bathroom in his office and took a cold shower. Then he changed into a new set of clean clothes. He went back to his seat and after stabilising his emotions, had all different kind of thoughts in his head.
The day went by quickly and at almost 3:00 pm, Ron came to Kevin with the set of information he needed. He told him all about Linda. It was discovered that Linda was now a well-known artist and seemed to be living a normal and peaceful life. She even lived in a luxurious house and was pretty rich. After knowing her adress, Kevin only nodded and asked in curiosity but it was obvious his mood has greatly increased
" Didn't you check on her marital status "
Ron shoke his head and answered truthfully
" you said I could check that if I want and since I wasn't interested I decided not to and besides, from the information we have, it is obvious, she isn't married unless she secretly did. "
Kevin nodded and said mischievously with a wink
" oh in that case you still have a chance. You don't mind having a stepchild right "
Ron stared at Kevin in disbelief. Even in serious situations, he still find a way to joke. He wouldn't want to be with Linda, not after what she did. She betrayed all of them. Even if he still harbours feelings for her,he wouldn't give in. He said seriously
" I mind. It's not like she even deserves it "
Kevin nodded again with a serious expression
" yeah you are right "
Ron studied Kevin for sometime. Seeing he was not in his miserable state as he had left him, he sighed in relief. Kevin seems to be in good spirits now. Kevin said thoughtfully
" Mmh, I will meet her tomorrow "
It was like he never had an attack. Wait, the attack, Ron thought of something and chose his words carefully
" but, Kevin meeting Linda, are you not going to have any attack "
Kevin smiled again and said
" I'm not weak Ron "