This week has been a damn chaos—or well, time travels suck, especially when you're an existence governed by chronologic principles very different from how the universe as a whole operates. Ugh, just thinking about it gives me a headache. Luckily, reality didn't shatter due to my exponentially irradiated existence, and neither Nora nor I were erased from timelines or the universe's existence registry.
I had to merge her with herself and send her to a point where she didn't have the watch yet to fix that, while I simply "synchronized" to avoid ceasing to exist because of having so much power in such a short time. From what I understand, what happened to my being when time traveling is that my future version powers up my current self in that timeline as if I were x to the power of x. The most dangerous part was that this repeated with more time travels I experimented with, yet I didn't gain control over such power. Literally, I had to learn to control everything in less than a few or die trying. For the love of everything sacred, for a moment I was almost omnipotent in every sense of the word, with the caveat that I could have truly died without being able to prevent anything.
I sighed resignedly as my hands clenched due to my incompetence. Death is not something I want to experience again, especially not one in which I wouldn't even have a soul to attempt to return to any physical plane of existence.
But at least I could take something good out of all this, unlike Nora who, let's be honest, was mostly traumatized by time travels. After all, she saw herself die from different temporal perspectives and also experienced death with it.
I thought about all this as I watched reality around me twist before my internal diatribe, which was basically the representation of my soul in the material plane but not really my soul, which is something strange to describe but basically a representation or middle ground between the material plane and the immaterial planes where the soul or basically the immaterium of this reality is located? Maybe yes, maybe no, I don't have that knowledge yet. That itself makes it difficult to explain in truly comprehensible words the workings behind how it functions, though what it does is easy to explain.
Which would sum up everything a mind could think, as long as I find myself within it, so now I have my own reality marble? The short answer: yes, the true answer is: too complicated and long to really explain it.
One might think, great, now you're a God or an equivalent with the "Reality Marble," life on easy mode, same answer yes and no, I can do whatever I want ONLY inside it. Things like creating a universe? Easy: just create its physical rules and it's not something too complicated if you just mimic the four fundamental forces of the universe, destroying that universe? Same thing, but creating that universe OUTSIDE? It would be impossible, besides that even if I create it inside the reality marble there would be two things if I UNDO that reality marble, the universe is erased or remains paused until I create a new reality marble.
So if I want things to happen while I'm not there, I must keep the reality marble active, which constantly consumes all my energy, and if I'm outside it in that I would be WITHOUT powers basically because I wouldn't have energy to draw on to use in the material plane.
I also can't bring anything from there to the material plane, things crumble if they stop being supplied power, but that doesn't prevent modifying objects inside it, that is to say transforming one thing into another and bringing that thing to reality if possible as long as the mass that enters is the same as that which exits, which is a rather reasonable rule and no, it's not the law of conservation of energy and I'll tell you why since if I create something with more electrons, protons, and neutrons but they retain the mass in themselves where did the energy come from? Did I create or supply it? So why don't I lose even a tiny part of power permanently?
I mean with the original transmutation I used what I do was governed under the atomic mass so if I transformed a kg of iron into gold I would have about ⅓ kg of gold but with the reality marble, no.
Ugh, it's too absurd, I don't want to think about it right now.
Another aspect I tried within the reality marble was the creation of my own demons or spiritual entities. Which let me tell you was a resounding success but that I don't really plan to implement besides a few entities.
The first thing to explain would be what is a demon? With that I don't have a real answer according to the canon besides "a fragment of a chaos god" in the case of demons that serve under the four great ones, about the others I really don't know.
So with that very brief information, I really tried to create a demon from my being, the first result was a construction of self-conscious psychic power to the degree and parameters that I designated a resounding success at first sight and if it was a success in what it concerns, but the being couldn't exist outside this place, not because of the lack of psychic power in the environment to exist and reform in the reality marble as demons would normally, simply couldn't, the demon died within a few minutes and didn't reform, of course if I supplied power it would continue to exist, and so on during too many attempts to create something permanent or quasi-permanent as I hoped.
I made about five thousand five hundred attempts, which was too long but this is a reality marble, I control time inside so if months passed it isn't important since only a few hours passed outside.
Anyway, the answer was simple, I just had to use a fragment of myself as a base for the creation of the demon give the instructions of what I wanted and voila, I had a demon but had lost power in the process, of course I'm not that stupid as to have used too much power, I estimated that I used something like ⅕ part of a human soul if Connie's soul can be used as a measurement reference.
The demon was weak, absurdly weak, but could do everything I could only that of course too weakened to be relevant, and too loyal as it was in essence a part of myself could have individuality of course but at the end of the day it was like one of the many cells that compose a greater being.
Since it was only an experiment I simply absorbed that small wisp of essence that I used to create it.
And I left the reality marble too many things in such a short time from my perspective, I didn't want to stress out with more esoteric things for the moment and neither with the truly disturbing fact that I was starting to look like the Gods of Chaos, At least in form of existence.
I don't plan to become that, it would be too boring and restrictive to be tied to concepts of reality. That your existence is tied to concepts is a true form of death because your entire being would be governed by those concepts, you would only be a glorified slave with power that is unable to discern that it is tied by the ropes of its own power.