Alex pov
"Do you even love me Alex?" Those words hit me like a sharp edged sword right through my chest....
I couldn't answer that question because the answer was void
'nothing'
I don't love her and neither do I hate her....I want her to be mine and mine alone yet my pride seems to keep getting the better side of me as it tells me we don't need to love...
'i can't love, I can't '
"I thought so too" she said and turned around to leave...I was too speechless to even tell the guards to stop her
'maybe letting her go would help me get rid of this heavenly defying emotions from every fiber of my being ....from every breath that I take....from every where in this room, as I have come to get used to her scent and every inch and part of her body...'
"My prince should we.."
"No" I raised my hands up to signal the guards not to stop her from leaving.....
"Everyone leave this fucking room now!"I said with so much anger brewing up in my system like I could punch a million holes into that goddam door of which she walked right out of....blaming the door for being so open for her to walk right through....
Everyone began leaving the room and I sat down at the edge of the bed, that same spot on which she stood right up to walk away from...
"Eric" I called...I didn't need to say much as Eric was my right hand man and understood everything I wanted and needed at every particular time.... he's more like a friend than a personal assistant...
I took out a cigarette from the top drawer, went to the balcony just right out the window of the room to smoke....
A lot of thoughts were going through my head..
'did I make a mistake letting her go'
'do I love her?'
'does she hate me now'
"Keep those thoughts for later Alex" Eric said behind me....I must've been thinking too much I didn't even know when he walked in....
But then he's a trained personal assistant and can sneak in anywhere without being unnoticed..and yes, he's also a vampire..
Our race is no longer in mass as it used to as humans have dominated this world and found devices which could eliminate vampires in one strike...however those devices only work on common vampires and not pure blooded once like the royals..
"Get me a fresh one tonight"
"But Alex..." Eric sluttered knowing what I was driving at...vampire Royals have stopped forcing blood out of humans and have started using alternatives like animals...
In some cases, we also have human donors who donate their blood for some money....
The royals have their personal blood bank of which they could take human blood from anytime....
In this case, I was requesting for a human to drink directly from tonight and clearly this man called Eric is trying to defy his prince's order...
"I am not asking you to do it, it's an order...." I said and waved off my hands for him to leave the room...
"Give me one" Eric demanded ignoring the fact that I told him to leave the room...but I guess that's the kind of treatment you expect when you make your bestfriend your personal assistant....
"What do I do" I asked...I was fucking devastated....how did I let go of a woman which I genuinely cared about..
"Do need us to bring her back for you Alex?" He asked...knowing it's something I would have probably wanted to do..
"No" I said with a flat voice and he left....
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(Coco Island estate: Alex mother's house)
"Alex" the sound of my mother's voice echoed behind the door when she opened it for me....I gave mother a hug and she ushered me inside the house
I bought the house for mom and let her stay here without dad knowing....although I didn't really know the full reason why they got separated, and I didn't even want to know because it could be something that would tear me apart...
So I bought this house for mom and let her stay here...I go to see her from time to time to check on how she's doing but today I think I went there for her to see how messed up of a son she gave birth to...
"You don't look so good son, mind telling your mother what's wrong"
Everyone sees me as a tyrant but with my mother, Eliza, I'm just a baby in her eyes no matter how hard I try to act tough with her..
"I...I think I like her" I said and she looked at me clueless about what I was saying..
"Who?" She asked and I contemplated on whether to tell her or to just keep it to myself....but I grew up letting my mother in on almost anything I was going through...and even with all that she was facing she still found a way to accommodate my excesses...
Not until Father made me believe she was dead....half of my childhood was ruined with the mindset that I had lost my mother....until some weeks ago when I got I ventured out to find her....I got some information that someone saw her in a remote village and I went to get her from there....
She told me the story of how she got really sick and the hospitals they visited told her there was no solution so she asked father to get me a mother figure, the woman who birthed Makayla, my stepmom, Queen Ashley....
I was so mad when I heard this..
'how could he have abandoned her'
'and so what if mother requested this, his love for her should've been able to resist that absurd request'
Mother went out in search of a cure with one of the maids in the palace, her most trusted made who swore her allegiance to the ex-queen.....
She didn't tell me the whole story, but somehow she managed to find the cure and that was how she was healed from that grave illness....
She mentioned that it was karma from a tragedy and that tragedy will also befall the present queen and any other queen to come....but I didn't understand so I didn't ask further.....
"Amelia....Amelia Johnson" I said and she screamed in excitement....she always wanted me to truly like someone and care for someone other than family and she always told me that true love existed and shouldn't let Father's occurrence with her make me think otherwise....
"You think you like a woman, you love a woman, Alex this is wonderful, Oh Alex" she said, hugged me and gave me a kiss on my cheek....
"What happened"she asked when she noticed I wasn't even as half excited as she...
"I let her go" I said and she just let me lean on her shoulder for a while....I calmed down a bit and felt a lot better from it...
"If you truly care for this woman, then go get her son"
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"Mother requests your presence, she's in your room" Makayla told me with a straight face and left my presence.....
I went into the palace just as I got down from my car, through the hallways, up the stairs and right into my room to find her settled at the edge of the bed...the very favourite spot of Amelia's...
"Don't sit there" I said casually as I signaled her to go over to the other chair by the table at the other end of the room.....
Surprisingly, she stood up and did exactly as I said....
'she's never this nice unless....
"We need to talk Alex" she said with a worried tone and expression....on a normal day, the last thing I wanted to happen was having any conversation with her.....
"It's about Lauret...."
"Mother if there's something else you want to say to me...do say it because I'm running out of patience"....if I knew this conversation was about the Patricks, I would have left my room for the guest room instead...
Where's the interest in sleeping here when there's no Amy here anyways...
"You have to marry her.... that's the only way we can form an alliance with them"
" Oh mother spare me all that bullshit.....you and I know this palace can survive whether or not with the Patricks....there are so many other families out there, wealthy and capable to form an alliance with..." I said...stopping myself from going further because there were guards around and I wouldn't want to bring about any reason for rumors...
" Leave my room" I growled in a low but angry voice....
"But Alex..."
"Mother!!"
She left my room and I shut the door and locked it....roamed around the room to soak up very damn little scent that was remaining from Amelia.....I can't believe I let her go, what kind of monster would let go of someone he really cared about?....
"Me, I'm the monster"
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