My aunt has really gone crazy, taking me to hell?
What kind of thinking is that?!
I don't want to die now!
It was incredible motorbike madness, my body went numb and I always almost fell when he rode like a real racer. His skills in riding a motorbike are not worth trying for anyone.
Even I, who was sitting on the back of the motorbike, felt that death was really there and happening to me without me realizing it. Fear continues to haunt my thoughts, my words, and my hallucinatory thoughts that lead me to death.
There wasn't a single word that could calm me down other than screaming in fear and the incredible feeling of panic that I always felt.
"Hey! Auntie, please slow down the speed of the motorbike ... This is crazy!!" I answered while screaming while hugging him tightly from behind.
Strong gusts of wind made my speech a little hampered. Makes me always have to scream when talking to him.
"Ha? What are you saying?!" He didn't hear it and shouted back at me.
"Please slow down the motorbike!!!"
"What?!!!"
"Slow down the speed of the motorbike!!"
"Huh?!" He was still trying to hear it.
Bravely, I immediately approached his right ear and shouted loudly. "I beg you, slow down the speed of the motorbike right now!!!"
"What? Increase the speed of the motorbike right now?"
"No!! That's not what I meant!!"
"Okay if that's what you want, young man. Prepare to head to the first level of hell!"
"W-Wait ... This isn't what I wanted ...!!!"
He increased the speed of his motorbike, did it happily and while doing the action of lifting the front tire of the motorbike (Standing the motorbike) which made me really feel useless and hopeless when I was with him.
".... Ahhhhhhhh ... You crazy auntie!!!"
That's not what I wanted, I really felt like I was going to die from losing my voice. It's really annoying, my screams are useless if they are blocked by strong gusts of wind like this which can hinder the flow of my voice.
I will never forgive him. From now on, I will hate the wind. That's the stupid thing I'm thinking right now.
Suddenly, the eyes of everyone on each side of the road opened in disbelief when he did so casually in the middle of the highway. Even my aunts don't care if they see it like that. Now what is on his mind is not about safety, but rather discipline about time management which cannot be taken lightly.
Well, even though the highway is quiet and there are no other cars or motorbikes blocking it. But it's still a crazy thing that no one should do. My eyes clearly saw how they witnessed it.
They looked at me like a fool with his head almost hitting the asphalt because of the crazy action he was doing.
Even 2 small children, one girl and one boy who were holding ice cream, made them in disbelief and confusion with their mouths open innocently while looking at us.
Causing the ice cream to accidentally fall when they stared innocently at us. When they came to their senses, they could only swallow the wind which made them scream and cry after realizing the ice cream was missing in their hands.
Then their mother could only worry and try to calm her two children. It seems really delicious if you can eat ice cream now on a motorbike. But you should know what I'm doing now.
Because it is impossible and will never happen if he uses his motorbike like this when I have desires like those two small children. It seems that if I look stupid like a child it will make him angry when I do it. Maybe if she was a mother, she would continue to treat me like a baby.
But, my aunt is not what you think. He doesn't care if it's a child, he will do anything to turn them into talented adults. It doesn't stop there, every time I look at the side of the road.
I saw many people suddenly taking out their cellphones to take photos of us. Their faces looked a little happy after taking our photo, they didn't even care about my ugly painted face because they panicked when they saw it.
They kept taking pictures of him. That is something that is rarely done by other people in general, they think it is a miracle if anyone can do it. That's what the people who saw it thought.
Suddenly he startled me because he lowered the front tire of his motorbike which immediately lifted me forward.
Hiss. ".... Hahhhhhhh ... I really am like an undead revived ... Amazing." I answered flatly in a low tone.
Chuckling, this is what makes him funny and laughs after playing with me. ".... Ahahahahahahahhaha ... Undead you say?"
"What?! Now you can hear the sound of my soft mouth?! You're really playing with me, aren't you?!"
He kept laughing at me in a very loud voice. ".... Ahhhahahhahaha ... Ahahahahahahahhaa ...."
He really pissed me off. I didn't think he would do that to me. "You crazy Auntie, how can you play with me at a time like this? What do you think I am? Useless trash, right?"
"You even answered your own stupid question, if you already admit it, you should know what made you like that."
"What? Admit it? Me?" I was shocked and confused when he said it like that, as if he was trying to make me aware of myself.
"Realize your stupidity, being a burden and being useless has its limits."
"Burden? No use?" I answered with an innocent look with open eyes while complaining that it was the truth.
Ahh, I remember it. That's right, I'm useless and always a burden to him. Even my birth seemed to be unwanted by any world. I don't know why this passed so quickly ... Their smiles ... Their affection, and their togetherness filled with warmth. There were so many incidents that made me feel that it was a destiny of happiness before death took away the story.
This is true ... After that, nothing could make me stand up again to have a more meaningful life and bloom towering like a tree, before the dry season put him to sleep again because he lost a figure who was so precious to him.
Water ... The perfection of existence that will make it the ultimate complement. But, it might be impossible for me to get it back other than one cherry blossom that has always accompanied me to this day.
"... Ahh, Auntie is right. I'm just trash ...." I slightly lowered my head as I felt it silently.
"Exactly. You are useless, burdensome, stupid, weak, pathetic, and cowardly trash." He said it very loudly with very clear and firm words.
His words were too difficult for me to accept gracefully. But, I understand why he said that to me. I'm sure he must have his own reasons for saying that honestly.
My aunt continued. "Stupid humans, apparently this is the reason they begged me. How long will you lower yourself to blame all your shortcomings? You will continue to be down if you always think like that ... Remember, death has not taken your life yet. You still have a long way to go!"
"But … I don't know where to start." I was nervous when I said it with a lack of confidence.
"It doesn't matter where you start. Find your own path no matter what!"
"What if I can't do it?"
"Wake up, loser!! There's no time to think about sad things like that ... If you're really my nephew, go away!! Face everything with grace and wisdom!!"
"B-But ... It doesn't matter if it's a path to death?"
"Exactly. There's no way that trash like you can't be recycled perfectly. Even a blind person can continue to move forward even though he can't see anything. No matter if he dies, he will continue to rise to find out the reason he was born like that !!"
He actually snapped at me without thinking. Indirectly, he trained my mind until it became solid steel.
Maybe this is what I always need to be able to improve my life even though shortcomings and suffering will always color every story. I never saw any hesitation or fear in him when he spoke like that or did something beyond human ability.
I don't care if it has to be like this when facing it, a stupid person like me will never understand how to understand other people's words with feelings. He slowly made me understand how to do it.
"So, that's how it is."
"Yes. Soon, the first lesson will start."
"Eh? Soon? First lesson? Could it be ... We're really going to do something crazy?!" Instantly he surprised me because it reminded me of his previous words.
"Get ready, young man!" He answered while grinning as he continued to increase the speed of his motorbike.
"W-Wait … What are we going to do?" I peeked ahead over his right shoulder, it was clear that the 3 red lights on the road pole at the intersection were already on far ahead.
Many cars drive from right to left and from left to right. However, I didn't see any cars or motorbikes stopping on the same road as our motorbike. Maybe this is just one straight road.
"Red light ... Crossroads? That's impossible ... Auntie is joking, right? We can't possibly pass it, right? What I said is true, right?" I answered while babbling nervously because I was afraid he would actually do it.
"Hoi ... You can hear what I'm saying, right?!! Answer right now!!"
Grinning. "First lesson, passing through death!!"
"Impossible, impossible ... Auntie is crazy, isn't she?! Look, there are lots of cars driving ahead ... Are you going to violate traffic rules?!"
"Watch carefully …."
"Wait!! Don't pretend to be deaf like that!! What if they see us doing something like this?! And take us to the police station?"
"They won't have time to see it. Don't worry, leave everything to your aunt!"
In fact, he said it that easily without thinking about anything else that would burden him. He completely underestimated salvation, no matter what level of difficulty he would face, he would continue to advance even if death was at stake.
"What?! It's that easy for Auntie to say? Seriously?!! Absolutely impossible ...."
"Calm down a little, don't worry like that."
"Fool, how can I be calm at a time like this!! Please, don't do that ... I beg you!!" Glancing right and left while begging. "Stop ... Stop right now!! Didn't Auntie see 2 long-haul container trucks driving in the opposite direction?"
"That's right, I saw it ... It's a miracle that I was hoping to be able to do it. This is the right time, I didn't expect to get 2 at once when I wanted to do it."
I looked at him with my eyes open in fear, seeing 2 white container trucks carrying long loads already in front of my eyes. I don't know what he was thinking at the moment, I could only stare in fear and resignation after seeing the hole under the truck.
Makes me not believe that he could do it. "Impossible, impossible ... I have a feeling we're going to die. We're going to get under that truck?"
"Exactly. However, we only have 1% success in passing. Most likely ...." He answered in a low tone with careful mouth movements when he wanted to say the next word.
"The odds?"
"We're going to die."
"If Auntie knows!! Why do we have to do it?! Stop this motorbike right now. I don't want us to die just because of something stupid like this!"
Even when I said it like that, my aunt still didn't care, I felt like she really wanted to do it. I'm completely useless and can't do anything.
"No, I told you, right? Nothing is impossible in this world."
"This is absolutely impossible!!"
"Trust me, believe we will get through it without one of us dying. It's true, you definitely won't believe it if I keep saying it like that. But ... Believe me!"
".... No ... Please ... Don't ...." I have completely surrendered to the incredible fear I feel at this moment, even death is already haunting my thoughts when I see the crossroads getting closer.
"Trust me."
"No … Don't do that …." Shaking my head, fear completely shakes my soul. "Don't ... This is absolutely impossible to do ...."
The two of us were already close to a traffic intersection.
"Trust me."
"No, this is not a fantasy world. This is not a world of magic that can bring back the dead."
"Believe it!!!"
I was really scared, he kept screaming to convince me to get through.
"Trust me!!!!!"
In fact, he said it so loudly and firmly that it made me feel like a weak ant who couldn't hear his voice even though he was close by.
" .... Believe ...."
"Harder!!!"
"Believe."
"More than that!"
I closed my eyes and hugged him tightly while screaming loudly because he kept forcing me to do it. "I trust you!!!!!!!"
He could only grin happily and confidently when I said it out loud. "Yosh! Let's get started!"
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